ALONE

ALONE is the word that best describes me at this time in my life. Living in Camaquã I was surrounded by friends and people ALL THE TIME in my house, and I honestly had had enough of that. Well, now i've come to the complete opposite which isn't so great either. The deepest conversations I have had nowadays are with my 11 month old like: "Let's watch Barney", than go on to sing along the Barney DVD. Or else, "Pumpkin, it's nap time", than go on to hear some tiarsome(sorry, bad spelling) tears from a little girl who doesn't like naps!! I feel the need to have some sort of outlet, but can't seem to have found one right now, and once my husband gets home, he needs to have his time with Little Miss, and once she's in bed, neither of us have the energy to get into deep conversations! Funny thing is that writing this I've stopped to realize how many hours a day I actually spend all by myself!! My husband leaves home for work around 8:30 and has half hour lunch, which I'm SO greatful he comes home to, than he only comes home at around 7:30-8pm. And in the mean time I'm running around the house trying to keep up with my little girl who's climbing everything and crawling everywhere, while trying to keep the house livable. You would think that after spending so many hours alone, I'd be thriving to see people and 'get out there', but I've found that the more time alone I am, the more I want to 'hide', it's just that I haven't had the gutts nor the desire to go out there and talk to people.
Alone is not the only word that describes me now; LOST is a good one too. At the end of the day, i look at the diapers I've changed, the floors I've swepped 'again' and the food I've made 'again' and the time I spent washing dishes and washing and hanging and folding clothes 'again' and the times I had to stop everything to hold a crying baby, and the times I had to feed and bathe and put down for a nap and everything else you have to do with a baby, and it all feels like I'm going in circles, because I know that once I wake up, I'll have exactly the same tasks 'again'. Don't get me wrong, I'm VERY grateful for being able to be the one to care for my little girl and see her growing out of each fase, but should I be satisfied with that and ONLY that>:: I really don't know. It's really hard sometimes to see the big picture of things, like raising a child. The everyday tasks seem to shadow the influence I'm actually having in her life. I know this blog isn't making sense at all, it isn't making any sense to me either. I guess I should just stop here. i don't know if writing down these thoughts really help or make me feel sorry for myself...don't want that!!!

rushing the writing

It has been three months since my last, which in a sense is very embarrassing, but if you'd take a peek into my current internet situation, you'd see why! Let me explain. When we first moved to Rio Grande, we decided not to put internet in our home so we wouldn't have that extra expense since it would only be for my use, and when I wanted to access the internet, I'd go to the store downtown and use it. The only little problem we didn't think of at the time, was that with a 10 month old baby, it's not that simple!! When I do get a chance to go to the store, I have to be lucky enough to have no clients being assisted which gives me the chance to use the computer. At the same time, my husband has to be free enough to hold Julia while I use the computer, because all she wants to do is type WITH mommy!! So, as you can see, by the time I'm able to use the computer, all I can really do is check my email and my family blogs quickly and that's it! As I speak, my little girl needs....maybe I'll get the chance soon to put pictures of her!!

julia 7 months!!!

She brings us so much joy...just like her name says!!

first time at the beach!

this is julia's first time at the beach! it was a chilly day, so we couldn't put her in the water llike we wanted to,( poor child - crazy parents)!

7 days to 6 months

It`s hard to believe that my little girl is almost 6 months old! She is absolutly awesome, sweet, smily and simply beautiful!! Here is Julia Joy, 6 months old!!

Master Eletrônicos

Master Eletrônicos is the name of our new electronics store in the city of Rio Grande!! So yes, we have finally moved to our new town and now we are adapting to our new city, house, and routine! It has almost been a year since Neval first had the idea to open a store and expand his business and we have been very anxious for it to become reality, and it finally has and we are SO excited to see how everything is coming into place so smoothly! In the 15 days we`ve been here the store is practically open and our house practically organized!

Above are some pictures of this new adventure in our lives! As you can see there aren`t any products set out yet since we just finished remodeling the store.

Julia 4 e 1/2

p.s. she is crying on picture number 4 because she doesn't like to put clothes on after baths. Basically she cries after every bath, just when i start putting clothes on!! Any suggestion as to how to take that trauma away are all very welcome!